The more I think about it, the more I understand that Pocket Girl started long before I began dating terrible men, flailing in my artistic career, or smacked hard into the wall of sexism. I was raised to not have a self. Gas-lit into believing the problem was me, and not the horrendous, dysfunctional, misogynist, abusive bullshit, I was marinated in.
Podcast Ep. 19
It’s been a while since we’ve heard from the Pocket Girl and this episode explains why. Also, she’s now officially Alexandra Carson. For now, she still lives in Portland.
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Pete Walker is not only a survivor of CPTSD, but also a therapist. His book Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving is a must read and offers so much hope.
Beauty After Bruises is one of the very few sites dedicated to CPTSD awareness and can help connect you to therapists and resources.
Shahida Arabi: Her book Power: Surviving and Thriving After Narcissistic Abuse was instrumental in helping me with some breakthroughs last year.
The Body Keeps Score by Bessel van der Kolk. Not CPTSD specific, but tons of relevant and helpful information.
All Episodes in this series:
- May 12, 2020 Pocket Girl Podcast: CPTSD
- September 3, 2019 Pocket Girl Podcast: Crazy Lonely
- June 23, 2019 Pocket Girl Podcast: #SYA
- June 11, 2019 Pocket Girl Podcast: Match.con
- May 23, 2019 Pocket Girl Podcast: Burning the Barn
Kristina Haddad says
Thank you Alexandra for this powerful, powerful podcast. So brave, so illuminating and the way you describe and share is fiercely potent. The line that was featured above in particular struck a chord. Please give us more of your work and creativity because your immense talent is so needed. Depth and vulnerability and humor and wisdom.
“I was raised to not have a self. Gas-lit into believing the problem was me, and not the horrendous, dysfunctional, misogynist, abusive bullshit, I was marinated in.” Wow. Just wow.